No No NO No NO NO NO!!!
this isn't happening. it can't be. I refuse to let it. and yet it is out of my power.
Something is terribly wrong
but I am not going to lose five years of hard work.
I will go against everything I've believed- and I'll take the medicine.
I'll mask the pain everyday if I have to; certainly for every meet. And I'll win.
Even if I can't put this mind over matter- somehow... I'll do it.
I don't cry; but today I came very very close. I didn't... but it took a whole lot of faith/hope/courage/denial/stubbornness to fight down the lump in my throat. Today, my hopes and goals shattered a little when I realized that it didn't matter how much I wanted it- some things just aren't in my power...
And one of those is the pain.
posted by loo at 10:30 PM
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if i could give you a magical pill that could make everything better i would do it in a heartbeat. you work soo hard for this lauren and i wish i could make it all go away.
but i can give hugs, and although they cant take away the pain, maybe they can make you forget for just a little while. chin up darling. im routing for you. <3
^ couldnt have put it better myself
i second that
and you know im always here for you if you need to just vent
-love ya
That's something I had to face a while ago, too - that some things actually aren't in your power. Trying to get your head around that kind of makes you go crazy. It totally goes against what your parents told you every night before you went to bed when you were younger.
The thing is though, is that there will be something else. And that's enough to keep you going.
So cheer up. I can't tell you how many times I've been in the shittiest of moods, and all you did was smile and make things better for me. It's time for the girl who tries her best to make others happy to get some happiness all for herself. :) :) :)
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