I'm stuck with all these thoughts lately and I can't seem to reconcile any of them. I've always said that I love learning new things but this isn't fun and it doesn't come easily. No matter who I talk to and how many times I organize the situation my mind- it fails to become any more clear.

Obscure and opaque it is.

I just want to know. ha- doesn't everyone.
Everyday I realize more and more how wonderful it is to be a kid. When you admired the grown-ups because they could do things you were still to little to do. But you never noticed all the responsibility that came along with it. You never saw the other parts about growing up. You couldn't understand the thing called the real world.

This is no novel idea. I've been hearing it since adolescence when all you want to do is be older and achieve what seems to be liberating freedom.
...to be a kid again... enjoy it while it lasts... summertime blitheness.
Then it happens. You "grow up" and realize just how imminent the "real world" is. You know what I mean.

The time comes to make all those decisions. All those life-defining decisions.

yeah, about that.