I feel like a big girl. Cooking, cleaning, harvesting green beans and squash, feeding the dog, mowing the lawn (tomorrow), doing laundry (tomorrow) and still avoiding work that should have been done last week. I wonder what living outside this house will feel like. I suppose I will establish a life just as I did this past year. More friends to stay in touch with, classes to take and books to read, students to teach and sleep to lose. But gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Tonight, I am not looking forward to moving away. God, give me peace and a comfort for what's next. My head knows it but my heart is dragging far behind.